The New Year is exhausting.

I’m usually an optimist on any given holiday. I enjoy anything that includes extra glitter, food and celebrations. However, The New Year is exhausting in many different ways.

The exhaustion of a New Year doesn’t just come from staying up past midnight which is always a struggle for me. It’s also mentally exhausting. During New Years we are always focused on how we can be a super human this year and how much we sucked last year. Focusing more on our past and future rather than being in the present moment, one of the most important things I learned from 2017.

A new beginning is so forced by society during a new year. How are you going to change your lifestyle? How are you going to change your body? How are you going to change your relationships? I’ve had my fair share of new beginnings and I’m telling you this, it’s much more rewarding to let these changes come naturally rather than forced. We grow at our own time and not by January 1st, two thousand whatever.

I used to be obsessed with New Year’s Resolutions and sharing my goals for the upcoming year with the world. I even created a vision board art piece last year but lost it a month after posting about it. Do we actually set these resolutions to make ourselves a better person or to just prove to the world that we too have goals?

I hope you wake up everyday thankful for the lessons you learned from the previous day and how you can better yourself and goals daily.

With all of this being said, I did have a fantastic New Years which ended with a New Year’s kiss and pancakes for breakfast.

Stay Sunny!

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stop feeling guilty for doing something for you.

I wasn’t feeling it yesterday. I wasn’t feeling it the day before either. Sometimes I’m just not feeling things and I always feel like shit about it. I should be an awesome person today and I’m not, what’s wrong with me?

Last night I had some alone time and decided to take advantage of it. Although I promised myself this quiet and relaxing time I still felt guilty. I felt lazy because I wasn’t doing something productive. I could have been writing a new blog, working on my paper due next Sunday, starting a new project… absolutely anything would be better than what I was doing.

When I started to really feel guilty I took out my laptop and started to write a post for my blog that didn’t even matter to me just for the sake of getting something up on the blog. How silly is that? I then shut my laptop and made a goal. I got really enthusiastic about this goal.  “I’m going to binge-watch the entire season of my show tonight and nothing is going to stop me!” I whipped up some Mexican hot chocolate, grabbed a cookie, snuggled in my bed and pressed play. I was finished with my series by 10pm and went to sleep.

This morning I woke up feeling enthusiastic to write to you and tell you that I think you should make it a goal within the next week to binge-watch your favorite show on Netflix with hot chocolate so you can wake up the next day and be a badass.

Stay Merry and Bright!

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Two thousand sixteen.

I for some reason have had the most difficult time writing this post. Mostly because I’m not sure what my goal or objective is post. Do I talk about my trials and tribulations of 2016? What I accomplished and what I wish worked out for me? Do cry over my presidential candidate not getting into office? Discuss the extreme violence we have seen this year? Getting through a broken heart and finding myself? Places I’ve traveled to? How do I even begin to wrap up 2016 without writing you an entire novel? There’s so many different ways I could approach this seemingly obligatory New Years post.

The beginning of 2016 I found myself with wild anxiety that was unfortunately turning into depression in Vermont. Although I was in a good relationship, had a steady job, and was living in a beautiful place I knew there was something that had to change and I had to find Mariah again…but to my surprise I never lost sight of who I was at all, I was just still trying to find who I was completely.

I packed up my car with my life in the backseat and moved across the country by myself back home to St. George, Utah. This alone was quite the adventure and helped me learn and gain a strong sense of independence. After working and running around the red rocks of Southern Utah for a few months I moved my way to Mexico where I am currently enjoying life of sunshine, tacos, and culture.

This year has been filled with travel which was my ultimate goal. I have traveled around to some incredible places and so grateful and blessed for all of the experiences. Aside from passing 7 new states on my move I have traveled and visited Providence, Rhoda Island…Portland, Oregon…Bryce Canyon and Moab, Utah…Palm Springs, Los Angeles, and Disneyland, California…and of course San Felipe, Mexico.

In 2016 I stepped into the dating world which made me realize I’m completely okay being single and independent for a while. I have found some new favorite places and discovered some new passions which turned into beautiful new projects. I gained friendships and grew current relationships. I have learned so much about myself and what I’m really looking for in both my career and personal life.

You actually did really well, 2016, I am not disappointed.

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She believed she could so she did. 

I first want to tell you all that you CAN do things you never thought possible for yourself. Learn what you really want in life by exploring who you really are. 

When I was in third grade my teacher asked for me to be tested into special education. When I was a sophomore my school said I probably wouldn’t graduate in time due to too many failed classes.

Yesterday, I got notice that I have been accepted into a Master’s program for Creativity Studies. 

I am very blessed for this opportunity.  My goal was to have my masters when I was 30 but I’m on track to have it by the time I’m 25 now. I decided to shoot for an online program since I’ve acquired a traveling lifestyle.  

Although photography is my first love I’ve always felt something more within myself that I wanted more with photography then just being a photographer myself. I love teaching art just as much as I love photography and this opened my eyes into going into teaching and therapy. My biggest goal is to go into art therapy that’s photography based and take my knowledge of therapy through creativity into museums and galleries. A career to use creativity and art in a way to help other’s minds and self confidence would be a dream. 

Yesterday my family surprised me with a fun trip to Disneyland too! Instead of ears I purchased a Monster’s University hat in celebration for going back to school. 

I have the greatest support system and motivators! I’m so blessed for this opportunity!