The New Year is exhausting.

I’m usually an optimist on any given holiday. I enjoy anything that includes extra glitter, food and celebrations. However, The New Year is exhausting in many different ways.

The exhaustion of a New Year doesn’t just come from staying up past midnight which is always a struggle for me. It’s also mentally exhausting. During New Years we are always focused on how we can be a super human this year and how much we sucked last year. Focusing more on our past and future rather than being in the present moment, one of the most important things I learned from 2017.

A new beginning is so forced by society during a new year. How are you going to change your lifestyle? How are you going to change your body? How are you going to change your relationships? I’ve had my fair share of new beginnings and I’m telling you this, it’s much more rewarding to let these changes come naturally rather than forced. We grow at our own time and not by January 1st, two thousand whatever.

I used to be obsessed with New Year’s Resolutions and sharing my goals for the upcoming year with the world. I even created a vision board art piece last year but lost it a month after posting about it. Do we actually set these resolutions to make ourselves a better person or to just prove to the world that we too have goals?

I hope you wake up everyday thankful for the lessons you learned from the previous day and how you can better yourself and goals daily.

With all of this being said, I did have a fantastic New Years which ended with a New Year’s kiss and pancakes for breakfast.

Stay Sunny!

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I wore crazy lipstick colors & here’s what I learned.

My secret is out… I’ve always been fascinated and totally jealous of women who can pull off badass lip shades. I’ve always been pretty safe when it comes to lipstick, whenever I put red lipstick on I want to take it off as soon as possible. I definitely stick to light pinks and nudes when it comes to my everyday lip color.

While I was at Walgreens, I saw NYX lipsticks on sale and kept looking at all of the crazy colors and finally thought “Whatever, I’m going to do it!”

I really excepted this to be social experiment more than anything. I thought there would be many double glances, odd looks, any just overall awkward and uncomfortable experiences. I was actually surprised to find that I didn’t get as many looks about my lipstick choices. I think it’s a little more common than I thought or people just kept all comments to themselves. Although the social aspect of it didn’t turn out as I had thought, I still learned quite a bit from this lip color adventure.

You have to think a little more about your outfit choices

Since I’m used to having natural tones of makeup and lip color, I can wear anything with my makeup. However, adding these pops of color had me exploring my outfit choices more than usual. I definitely felt I needed to be “extra” with just about everything as well.

It tests your confidence 

The first day I wore the lipstick, I got really nervous to walk inside the grocery store! It makes you wonder what people think not only about your lipstick but what they think about you. Lip color can set a variety of first impressions for a someone. You can be seen as bold, intimidating, unprofessional, sexy, playful, etc. I think many women are interested in wearing all of these new and interesting shades but it is also extremely intimidating! However, I have found that you just have to stand tall and just own it!

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Navy Blue || NYX Soft Matte Lip Cream in Moscow

This was the first lip color I decided to wear and by far the most dramatic out of the three. It was defiantly a shock! This color I had the most double glances with but also quite a few compliments. I was totally nervous and unsure with this color but it grew on me by the end of the day! I think it definitely brought out some punk to my everyday look without going full black. My best friend also told me that she didn’t like blue at all in the beginning but it grew on her as “sexy and mysterious!” Although I don’t think I would wear this out during the day again, I would love to wear it again in the future. I would apply it for an evening out to a club or cool art event in the city. I think if you’re looking to explore a little edge in your look, go for the deep blue!

LipColor-4Bright Orange ||NYX Liquid Suede Cream Lipstick in Orange County

Bright Orange might be the most “acceptable” out of these lip shades but definitely wasn’t my favorite. That being said, I enjoy shades of orange much more than shades of red. This is a color I would need to be in the mood for. This color made me feel very exotic and the need to be totally colorful! I think this bright orange would be fun to wear for a beach day or to any summer event.

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Deep Lavender || NYX Matte Lipstick in Zen Orchid

Okay, Seriously. I want all shades of purple lipstick! I think this color would look great for just about any event and time of day. You can add it as a fun pop of color during the day or dress it up for the evening. Purple is a very creative color so I thought the perfect outfit for the day was a casual t-shirt which says “Inspire and Be Inspired” with a floppy hat. Let’s just say, I’ve become a huge fan of purple.

What is your favorite crazy lipcolor?

Stay Sunny!

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So now what?

After every big trip I get the question “So now what?” which is actually a question I ask myself everyday at least 3 times a day. So, I thought I would do a simple post as to what is going on in my life now and my current plans.

As you may not know, I was supposed to be moving to Grand Junction, Colorado. After my month long trip in July the plan was to come right home, pack up and leave for Colorado. Well, life had other plans and nothing worked out how it was supposed to. Although I feel as though I had failed I remember one of my favorite quotes…”God will wreck your plans if he sees your plans will wreck you”

Currently, my home will remain in Southern Utah and I will be traveling as much as I can, while I can. Also, focusing full-time on school until I graduate in April. Outside of school and traveling I am spending time on my creative work and building my future business. I am also still involved with the Art Museum by being a docent for school groups which I love so much.

In October I will be working at my family’s farm called Moon Farm in Fruita, Colorado! I will be there during their busy pumpkin patch season! It will be a new experience and I am definitely looking forward to it. It also works perfectly because I will get an extended time in Western Colorado without permanently moving there.

I am very blessed that I have this beautiful opportunity in life to spend exploring, learning and growing.

Stay sunny!

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I’m pretty cool but I cry a lot

I often get asked how I’m so happy and positive all the time and I have a little secret I’d like to share with you, I cry a lot. My crying doesn’t always come from being sad either. I’m not secretly a sad person. I cry when I’m angry, lost, embarrassed and overwhelmed. Crying keeps me calm and might be a good reason why nobody sees me angry.

This morning, I had heavy feelings in my mind and chest and just wanted to cry but kept it in and I was starting to get in a bad mood. When I’m in a bad mood I cannot focus on anything. I couldn’t even tell you why I was upset. Finally, I cried and I cried for a few solid minutes. After I was finished crying I made the realization that my chest no longer felt heavy and my thoughts were collected again.  I actually thought “Wait…that’s it?” I then proceeded to clean my face and move on with my day.

“Stay strong…don’t cry” these words are not meant to be in the same sentence. Just because you cry doesn’t mean you’re weak. You’re strong for understanding your feelings and actually being comfortable for showing emotions. When you confront your feelings you can have more peace to move on with your day.

If you’re having a bad day, just cry, confront those emotions and move on. We have far too much shit to do to be weighted down by bad emotions.

Crying feels damn good.

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I’ve been hiding from you.

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There’s a huge part of my image that I have been stereotyped as my entire life, which I have been able to live with up until I reached adulthood and have become a creative for a living. Always seen as the “good girl” sweetheart from Utah. This is not inaccurate. I am careful with my life choices, have a heart of gold and an innocence about me. However, there’s an edge and spark inside of me that I’ve been hiding from the world & it’s killing me creatively”

To become truly creative you have to be true to yourself, your emotions and overcome the fear of applying this not only to your work but sharing it with the world. This is what I study and this is what I preach. However, you must practice what you preach. I have been hiding my raw thoughts within my creative outlets. It sets my soul on fire when I can help others be creative and see them flourish into the true creative they are so what is stopping me from doing the same thing?

I’ve tried to be a perfectionist my entire life and it’s simply not fucking working anymore. This is not me asking for your acceptance because I have accepted who I am. I am not changing but blossoming into the person and creator that I truely am. I still have a passion for seeking wondrous life & spreading positivity. I have high hopes and aspirations that I can still inspire in travel, creativity and lifestyle all while leaving the sugar coating to the side.

I have a great amount of writings hidden away in my draft box & I’m ready to dust them off.

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Moments in black & white

Currently, I am on a month long trip between Eastern Idaho & Western Oregon.

During this trip I have not only been able to experience beautiful places but most importantly connect with friends that inspire me. I often find myself in a rut of guilt when I’m not always updating others on social media, keeping up with Instagram posts and a camera around my neck while traveling. Although I have had my camera with me most of the time and taking photographs, I do not take near as many as I used to in the past and especially while traveling. I have been trying my hardest to take in moments rather than capture them all. Feed my soul with memories and experiences that don’t necessarily need to be recorded onto a memory card and stored into my hard drive. I have been inspired with not only what’s been around me but the connections and conversations I have had with friends who inspire me with new light and ideas.

I have seen waterfalls and rainbows that have been unphotographed because I simply want to take it in for myself, selfishly, without sharing it with others.

I got to a point in my life where I was shooting much less because I was honestly getting bored of what I was photographing & needed a new boost of inspiration. I started to get sad and anxious about it not because I thought I was losing my passion but because others were noticing and questioning my passion for photography. However, stepping back from the camera has helped me tremendously. Now that I have spent sometime traveling without my camera always around my neck I have found some new light and have built some new concepts which I’m excited to experiment with.

Black and white images have stepped into my life recently with a newer meaning than they have before. I used to focus on black and white just as a artistic element to my photographs. Today I have found that black and white really enhances the moments rather than the colors. We always look at how beautiful the colors are in art and images but take little time to appreciate the light, texture and details of objects. Here are a few black and white details of my trip.

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Photograph taken of me by my friend Jayde Silbernagel for our personal photography project of running wild, free and nude along the wildflowers in Tetonia, Idaho.
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Owls at Tracy Aviary in Salt Lake City, Utah
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I ate this wildflower in Tetonia.

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At the top of our mountain hike watching the storm quickly approaching us.

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Opening Our Minds To Creativity.

Creativity is often and unfortunately pushed to the side as something that is not the most important skill to have in our daily lives, education, and careers. Creativity has become the green beans of the Thanksgiving meal when it should be seen as the turkey (or, the cherry pie) However, creativity is much more than playing with colors and crayons. Creativity is the motivation to innovation! Creativity helps us question, solve problems, and create. If there was no creativity in our lives we would still be living in the Stone Age.

Creativity is a vital skill to have on your resume and for good reason. Creativity is not only an important skill for employees but also enhances the environment you are working in. A creative environment for employees has become a foundation for successful companies today such as Pixar, Apple, Google, and Zappos.

Creativity is not only important in our careers and professional lives but our daily lives as well. Creativity makes life exciting and fulfilling!

Back to the idea of playing with colors and crayons.

Have you sat down recently with a handful of crayons just to scribble or doodle? I literally mean scribble. If you answered “no” I challenge you to take 10 minutes to do so and see what thoughts, questions, and ideas come up in your head.

“Creativity is experimenting, growing, taking risks, breaking rules, making mistakes, and having fun”
– Mary Lou Cook

“But I’m not a creative person!” you say. Did you know that creativity is something that is not just a natural-born trait passed down by our DNA but a trait that we can actually learn, build, and grow?

One of the best ways to help build your creativity is to open your mind and spirit to the world that is out of your normal comfort zone and environment. If you allow yourself to be stuck in one environment you will not have the room to grow your mind and gather new thoughts and ideas from other people, environments, cultures, or even religions.

My challenge to you is to try something new. Go somewhere new. Talk to someone new. Cook something new. Step out of your daily environment and routine. You might find a new passion or discover a new talent. You might come up with a groundbreaking idea and become a millionaire in the near future.

You might fall, you might fail, you might not even enjoy the outcome. Let me say this loud for everyone to hear in the back. FAILING IS OKAY. We are meant to fail and fall because this is how we broaden and grow our mind, thoughts, and nurture our creativity.

You CAN be creative!

 

Plans change and that’s okay.

I’m sorry I’ve been away. My mind has been on a lot as of lately because of changes that are happening a little sooner then I expected them to and also plans I didn’t expect to happen in the first place.

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My original plan was to stay in Mexico until April and move somewhere new afterward. California and New Mexico were both big possibilities or just go straight to Denver. Going back to Utah was not part of my plan.

I had to make the responsible decision to go home and start working again so I can not only save up for my next big move but to also feed more of my wanderlust. I need to take this time now while I’m doing school full-time online to be where it’s convenient for me to work and save money so I can travel as much as possible because I know once I settle down in a expensive city that opportunity to travel around will be much more difficult. Denver is still in my heart and soul but I’m also not holding my breath because I am blessed enough to lead a life that’s open to new possibilities and opportunities! Who knows, I might even get married in the near future. I decided to go for my masters online because it does give me great flexibility to travel and I am planning on visiting a new place at least once a month if that’s alone or with a friend. (Here is my open invitation to adventure buddies!)

It always sounds so degrading when you tell others “I’m going back home.” Why has that become a sign of failure? Sometimes in life you have to do things that will help you in life in the long run because life’s success really is a long run. I am very guilty when it comes to what other people think about me and my life. I often feel the need to impress or explain and here’s the thing…I’m done. This is my life, my path, and the pages of my story. I have to remind myself that there is no failure in what I’m doing at all and I’m just still on the road to where I need to be and on a great path to where I’m going. I’m 24, single, and still have a gypsy spirit that I’m not ready to let go of quite yet.

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I have enjoyed my time in San Felipe greatly and sad to see my time has come to leave so quickly and much sooner then planned. I have had many incredible experiences, explored new land, and learned how to slow down a little bit and enjoy life’s little moments.  I love my San Felipe family and looking forward to coming back for many visits in the future!

A girl’s gotta do what a girl’s gotta do!

Stay Sunny!

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Vision Board

Happiest 2017 to you!

Every year I wonder and ponder if I should share my New Year’s resolutions. Will I actually stick to them? Is anyone listening anyway? I was having the worst time writing a post about my resolutions and then became inspired by the idea of a vision board! Some people think that vision boards are bogus but there’s a lot of great research showing that they actually work! Plus, hey…it’s a fun and inspirational project!

What is a vision board? This is a board and collage made up with images, words, and quotes that inspire you to reach for your everyday or future goals. It’s a tool that will help one of the powerful mind exercises you can do…visualization! The Law of Attraction, people! If you see yourself in that place, time, and life everyday then that will become your life one day. The Law of Attraction is something I really believe in and wish I would apply it more into my life so I thought this would be a good step toward that!

I’m sure I will soon make a vision board of photos and printed quotes but I was feeling very inspired to create a piece of artwork the time and knew it would be a good step to get my mind on track of focusing!

The supplies you need for your project are a canvas, paint colors of your choice, printed out words and/or pictures, scissors, and modge podge. Also other creative supplies you would like to add…this is your vision! I of course chose some glitter.

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About my piece. I wanted my piece to represent a sun because sunlight brings me the most motivation and happiness. For my color choice I went with yellow and champagne gold. These colors really inspire me because they remind me of light and success.

The painting itself turned out much different then I first imagined it to be. Instead of shooting straight lines from the middle circle like a normal sun painting I decided to play with paint in a circular motion which created an orbit look in the galaxy to me! This actually makes sense and speaks a little more to the concept of my piece.

While my paint was drying I went into Photoshop to type up some words that are inspiring me. I used various sizes too based on what I want more focus on. I typed up and printed out some words in the font Traveling Typewriter…such a fun font that you can download here.

Once my paint was finished drying I cut out my words and scattered them around my piece and modge podged them into place. In the middle of my “sun orbit” I have placed a quote that says “Be fearless in the pursuit of what sets your soul on fire

There are some words on my canvas that I would like to share with you.

Denver, Colorado….this is because my biggest goal this year is to move back to Denver! I fell in love with Denver while I was there for college and it became my own home. I have the greatest friendships there and know I could do really well there with my photography and artwork!

Education…I am starting my Master’s degree right now in Creativity Studies and I’m also doing it full time online so that is a huge focus for me the next year!

$$$$$ and Success…I really want to focus on making and saving money this year! Between traveling and making a move to a big city… I’m going to need it!

I have also added some other words that inspire me such as ambition, positivity, independence, kindness, and pamper (because as girl’s gotta treat herself)

This year I’m planning on working a lot and working hard! I love to see my daily planner filled with productivity. Between school, working, and my blog…it’s going to be a packed year of great opportunities  and success!

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