A Bridal Series || How we knew so soon

I never thought I would be engaged after dating and knowing someone for a short 2 months. If you told me last Christmas I would meet my husband in the new year and be married by next Christmas I would have thought you were insane.

Our first date was January 25th, 2018. We said “I love you” February 7th. We told our families we were getting very serious a few weeks into our relationship and he proposed when I got home from Paris on March 26th, 2018.

Please understand before reading this post that everyone in life follows a different journey and path. Our relationship will not be the same as the next and all relationships filled with true love and companionship are beautiful.

I believe this is the part where I should say “when you know, you know.” I never understood what that meant or how that was supposed to feel until I felt a deeper connection with Matthew than I’ve felt before. This goes way beyond butterflies in your stomach. During the first couple of weeks of getting very serious I prayed just asking “please guide me and take us in the direction we are supposed to go.” We have shared some very strong spiritual connections that still give me goosebumps.

Our communication level is very strong.  You can know someone for just a few weeks and know more about them than someone you’ve known for many months based on how well you communicate with one another. The good, the bad and the ugly. Not just about our past but our everyday communication as well. How we are feeling, why we are feeling that way and we don’t judge each other for those feelings. It’s only acceptance, guidance, patience and love between the two of us. We also just speak the same language so it makes it very easy for us to talk to each other.

We are totally comfortable with each other. I heard a great podcast saying how silly it is when people say you’re no longer free once you get married when you should feel the MOST free once you’re married because you are free to finally be yourself! We love and admire each other’s quirks and mannerisms.

We have both been through life. We have both gone through serious life experiences which have brought growth into our lives. We’re both old enough to know and understand what we needed in life and a partner to help us grow and to be our best self. When we found each other it was a sudden “wow, here you are!”

Our families and love ones knew too. We are SO extremely blessed by the love and support we have received from our family and friends on our big life decision. Not only did our families see the glow in our faces but they just felt as though it was right and we really were meant to be together. They could see that we are our best self when we are with each other.

At the beginning of our relationship we felt a deeper connection than being a long-term relationship. We felt a connection as life partners and we knew we were meant to be husband and wife.

Here are some beautiful wedding quotes that really inspire me from theweddingforward.com I can’t wait to place these beautiful words around at our wedding and our home someday.

“So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s going to be really hard; we’re gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me… everyday.” Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook. Side note. Matthew and I watched The Notebook together and he may or may not have gotten a little teary eyed

“What I love most about my home is who I share it with.” Tad Carpenter 
This quote would be so cute on a wood sign hanging in our future home!

“What greater thing is there for two human souls than to feel that they are joined for life to strengthen each other in all labor, to rest on each other in all sorrow, to minister to each other in all pain, to be one with each other in silent, unspeakable memories at the moment of the last parting.” George Eliot

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A Bridal Series || The Ring

When we decided to we wanted to get married we began looking into engagement rings and what would best suit my personality and style. There’s so much you have to consider in a ring such as the stone, style, cut or maybe even the price. Ohsoperfectproposal.com offers so many amazing engagement ring inspirations. There are many different articles that can help you make all of these important decisions. I knew I wanted something with a colored gemstone or vintage. We knew we wanted something unique but also simple.

We decided that an emerald stone would be the best choice for me due to a couple of reasons. One, I’m going to be Mrs. Green and also the meaning behind it is so beautiful and very suiting for Matthew and I. The emerald stands for unconditional love, compassion, and growth.

The story of the stone on my engagement ring is very special. When I mentioned to my Grandmother that we were looking for an emerald ring and she told me about an emerald ring that was going to be passed down to me in the future! The emerald stone was given to my Grandma from my Grandpa. He bought the emerald stone when he was in Colombia! The reason why the stone color is a light green is because it is a real and true emerald stone instead of a synthetic green saturated stone. They had the stone set into a ring which is what they gave to Matthew and I to do what we wanted with it. I remember seeing the look on Matthew’s face when he saw the ring. We knew it was right for us.

We went together to pick out the ring and design in Las Vegas the day before I flew to Paris in March. I get a lot of questions asking if that just ruins the overall surprise of the proposal. To be honest, it may have left out the “surprise” factor but it was such an amazing experience to share together and a extra special step. Matthew and I decided awhile ago that we want big moments in our lives to be shared together.

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We went into the jeweler with the ring and told them what we were looking for and the first option that was presented to us was the one! The stone is now set on a rose gold band with diamonds. If you know me, you know I’m a sucker for rose gold so this just takes my breath away. We also went ahead and got the wedding ring to go with the engagement ring. The wedding band is a simple row of diamonds in a rose gold set. The style is simple yet adds a little bit of contrast to the engagement ring. I can’t wait to wear it as a complete set!

Walking out of the jewelry store was a wild emotion of excitement and shock that we actually made a huge step to beginning our lives together.

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stop feeling guilty for doing something for you.

I wasn’t feeling it yesterday. I wasn’t feeling it the day before either. Sometimes I’m just not feeling things and I always feel like shit about it. I should be an awesome person today and I’m not, what’s wrong with me?

Last night I had some alone time and decided to take advantage of it. Although I promised myself this quiet and relaxing time I still felt guilty. I felt lazy because I wasn’t doing something productive. I could have been writing a new blog, working on my paper due next Sunday, starting a new project… absolutely anything would be better than what I was doing.

When I started to really feel guilty I took out my laptop and started to write a post for my blog that didn’t even matter to me just for the sake of getting something up on the blog. How silly is that? I then shut my laptop and made a goal. I got really enthusiastic about this goal.  “I’m going to binge-watch the entire season of my show tonight and nothing is going to stop me!” I whipped up some Mexican hot chocolate, grabbed a cookie, snuggled in my bed and pressed play. I was finished with my series by 10pm and went to sleep.

This morning I woke up feeling enthusiastic to write to you and tell you that I think you should make it a goal within the next week to binge-watch your favorite show on Netflix with hot chocolate so you can wake up the next day and be a badass.

Stay Merry and Bright!

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Little life update

Hola from San Felipe!

It’s been nearly two months since the last time we spoke *inserts crying emoji face here*

When you go so long without writing it’s difficult to hop back on the blogging train. Where do I start? What do I say? What to catch you up on? To get the blogging ball rolling again I thought I would do a little photo dump for you about the past two months of my life and travels.

  1. Last time we spoke I just started my month working at the Moon Farm Pumpkin Patch in Fruita, Colorado. It was a great way to get kick off the season of fall with the yellow leaves and pumpkins all around. I also learned how to make the best pumpkin pie!
  2. Disneyland, oh glorious Disneyland. The smell of Pirates of the Caribbean, squealing and laughing down the Matterhorn, It’s a Small World for the holidays, Tigger tails and giant turkey legs.
  3. Salvation Mountain and non-photographed Slab City. So interesting! The people are totally cool and the colorful mountain just makes your heart sing.
  4. I’m currently in San Felipe, Mexico which means sunshine and tacos until mid-December. Did I mention I’m obsessed with octopus tacos?

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Stay sunny!

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Colorado Adventures.

Well, I’m off on a new adventure once again and this time I’m out in Frutia, Colorado working at the Moon Farm Pumpkin Patch with my family! I have been in Colorado for the past two weeks and before arriving to Fruita I took a trip to Denver and Colorado Springs to explore and see my good friends!

I think about how I miss Denver all the time so I literally cried when I drove in. I was so excited to be in my favorite city and spend time with some friends who are so dear to my heart. My Denver trip involved the Botanical Gardens and the Denver Art Museum. I always love going to the DAM, they also have some great exhibits right now that are very inspiring. I encourage everyone to take a solo trip to their local art museum!

Outside of Denver I also took a day trip with my good friend, Jayce to Georgetown! Georgetown is this great little quaint place with history, shops and cafes. We also had to have some ice cream (obviously) I had sour cream poppyseed with a scoop of green tea! It sounds terrible but it was so wonderful. The best part of our Georgetown trip though? The train ride! I’ve never been on a train and it was the perfect thing to do to kick off the season of fall! The colors were beautiful and although it rained on us and became rather cold, we saw an amazing rainbow! If I could paint, that would be an image to paint.

In Colorado Springs my Colorado BFF McKenzie and I went to Garden of the Gods and then onto Manitou Springs. Manitou is also a small town filled with amazing shops and also a penny arcade with adorable vintage games to play on. We ended the day eating Ramen on Main Street in CO Springs, yum!

After Colorado Springs I headed to Fruita where I will be for the next month to help work at the Pumpkin Patch! I was born in Grand Junction and we lived at Moon Farm when I was a baby so it’s exciting to get sometime to explore my native land.

I can’t wait to update you on all of the Moon Farm Pumpkin Patch shenanigans!

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Focus on love

“BREAKING NEWS. More than 50 killed in Las Vegas Attack. Over 400 injured in deadliest shooting in the U.S. History” was the first thing I saw walking down the stairs this morning.

Las Vegas is so close to home. The shooter was even closer to home.
My mind was racing of all my friends and loved ones who love country music and music festivals. All of us who are always going to Las Vegas for time of enjoyment. Who could have been there? Who was close? Are my Vegas friends home safely?

I understand we are all angry. I would be lying if I said I didn’t have my own opinions about it all.

However, set aside your political views for now as we have seen the deadliest shooting in U.S History, a great amount of evil and hate. There’s families and loved ones of the victims who are in a deep amount of pain right now. There’s a great amount of innocent people who are in physical and mental pain right now.

We do not need to radiate more hate and anger. We need to focus our energies on love today toward the victims, their loved ones and Las Vegas.

Hold your loved ones close.

Twenty-five and feelin’ alive

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& here we are….alive at 25!

I have been looking forward to 25 for as long as I can remember and I don’t have a reason as to why. I always knew great and big things would happen at 25, so I’m feeling pretty good today. 

I have been seriously blessed this past year and have gone through so much personal growth! I explored more places in one year than I thought possible. Mexico, Palm Springs, San Fransisco, Seattle, Western Wyoming, Eastern to Western Idaho, and Western to Eastern Oregon! I also started working toward my Master’s degree in Creativity Studies and have a new direction of my future career goals. 24 treated me so well that I’m looking forward to seeing where 25 leads me.

Birthday reflections are so important to me. We always have goals, but do we ever take time to think and reflect about who we are as a person, what we have achieved so far and how we have grown? Here are some things that have made me grow since my last birthday reflection.

Self-acceptance 

This is by far the greatest thing that has happened to me. Wow, it feels so good and something I never hope to lose. I strive everyday to be a better person and have become okay with my imperfections. Hating yourself and your body is the most damage you can do to your mind and soul.

Being alone is totally cool

People often feel bad when I do things alone. To be honest, I love to do things alone. Traveling, day trips, going to movies, reading in the park. Sometimes I just love to have a day to myself to do what I want and on my own time. You learn so much about yourself when you are alone! I encourage everyone to take themselves out on a date!

Accepting my alcohol anxiety

Secret is out, I used to have terrible anxiety around alcohol. This year I officially found acceptance to my problem and have tried to overcome it. I have become much more calm around alcohol and actually drink a little myself on the rare occasion. Although you won’t see me taking shots for along time, I would love to join you for coffee and baileys anytime!

Your mind is just as important as your body

Go and learn something new, read a book, take a walk. Your mind muscles should be just as strong as your biceps. Between school, reading more books and taking time for my mind through peace and meditation my mind is more observant.

Feeling healthy is so important

I have never felt healthier than this year. I have found a great balance in my diet, take daily vitamins, drink plenty of water, practice yoga and meditation and also get some sleep! The idea of “Working hard and sleeping when you die” is extremely overrated. Self care is crucial, friends!

Broken hearts have nothing on me 

This year I have fallen in love and out of love. I was in a relationship and broke it off, simply because I know my worth. I have ZERO patience, time and energy to be treated with disrespect. Being single is much better than being in the wrong relationship. I no longer accept changing myself or my body just for someone else’s desires. This is why it’s important to fully be yourself before you get serious with someone else. I would love to find my soulmate and be married in the near future. However, I do not settle and I’m okay with waiting.

 

Keeping an open mind to changes

My life is always changing! Even though somethings don’t happen how they are supposed to, I know there is always something new around the corner. It keeps life so interesting and exciting. Sometimes things just do not work out, big deal. Just go with the flow and let life lead the way.

 

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Thanks to my good friend, Indigo for snapping some fun photos for me!

Stay Sunny!

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I’ve been hiding from you.

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There’s a huge part of my image that I have been stereotyped as my entire life, which I have been able to live with up until I reached adulthood and have become a creative for a living. Always seen as the “good girl” sweetheart from Utah. This is not inaccurate. I am careful with my life choices, have a heart of gold and an innocence about me. However, there’s an edge and spark inside of me that I’ve been hiding from the world & it’s killing me creatively”

To become truly creative you have to be true to yourself, your emotions and overcome the fear of applying this not only to your work but sharing it with the world. This is what I study and this is what I preach. However, you must practice what you preach. I have been hiding my raw thoughts within my creative outlets. It sets my soul on fire when I can help others be creative and see them flourish into the true creative they are so what is stopping me from doing the same thing?

I’ve tried to be a perfectionist my entire life and it’s simply not fucking working anymore. This is not me asking for your acceptance because I have accepted who I am. I am not changing but blossoming into the person and creator that I truely am. I still have a passion for seeking wondrous life & spreading positivity. I have high hopes and aspirations that I can still inspire in travel, creativity and lifestyle all while leaving the sugar coating to the side.

I have a great amount of writings hidden away in my draft box & I’m ready to dust them off.

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Wildflowers and Mountain Air

This post about Eastern Idaho is going to be short and sweet because I really can’t come up with all the wonderful words that can explain my time there.

There’s something particularly wonderful about waking up in the morning to sunlight and having fresh coffee along with the mountain air. During my time in Tetonia we spent many mornings on the patio with a breakfast full of fresh sautéed greens and coffee. We sat next to the river stream with a bag of cherries and good conversations. We meditated and ran nude in the wildflowers.

During my time in Tetonia, Idaho my mind was set free a little more and reminded me to breathe a little deeper, stop to smell the flowers, and that I definitely need trips up to the mountains more often.

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